Become Independent and Strong Woman

The most effective courses of life that I had was every opportunity that I can travel and have chances to interact with liberal, influential and strong people  who encourage me to grow up and be conscious  about my progressive mind. Meanwhile some instructors and classes make me grateful about this process and their wisdom words. One of them that I remember now was my six grade teacher when I lived in Tehran under bombing city with Iraqian air-force. Islamic government arrested people who had a sympathy about socialism, previous king or opponent about religious politics. Under threatening and dark huge fear that I felt , smell it and see it everywhere one of my teacher who taught us economic came to the class and stood in front of the board with head up and strong eyes and asked us" this is a really mean of life? this is that you really want to know about yourself, your life, your country, your religion? are you really studying about your religion? do you believe if you died you are going to other world? you are eating banana and fruits in heaven?( that period banana was banned it in Iran and one of the luxury fruits that nobody can afford it expect rich people). Her powerful words with her stunning eyes influenced my feminist work and changed me to person who cannot followed any politics, religion or any idea from any person or power without thinking, without researching and also learned magical word"NO" saying no without doubt, prejudice, judgmental mind. It goes without saying. She changed my life and showed me strong face of woman in during time when nobody has nothing opposite of the regime. Saying truth without thinking about the circumstance which effected her life but she cared more about the process of thinking and challenging mind instead of the book. Economic course with a lot of censorship it doesn't matter for her and later for me but the most important things that she wanted to teach us is the way that we think and look deeper to things. Reading philosophy, psychology, logic and science instead of following the ideology which the government wants to establish in our mind and life.

 I don't know what's happen to her because I have never seen her again but I become Journalist who work for woman rights and I paid a lot to be independent and strong woman who say NO to Islamic government and finally they forced me to leave the country but I don't have any rejection because all the time her green, stunning and strong eyes stay with me.

Hidden Wasting Time

Honestly, it's too hard for me to keep time track because I flow with moment. I also follow my mood so even get hardest to keep study schedule or work deadline. I feel I was much more better in past especially last semester; even though that I had 13 units, I focused on my studies but now I can't concentrate on my studies even when I try several times but I push myself to back on my good habits. When I am analyzing my time management I realized I spent a lot of time for unnecessary things  such as unimportant things and thought about something which drag me down. And also I post pond the important task to later date. I am not scheduling my week or near future to save more time. I just schedule my day! the means I don't plan my week before unfolds. Other hand, I don't nail a time to each task that's why most of the time I feel overwhelmed with unfinished homework this semester. I know my deadline but my dreamy mind loves to read books, literature, more interesting   articles like as philosophy, psychology and sociology instate of boring essay topics. Maybe this is the hidden reason that I post pond my college writing essay.  
The good side of writing time log was learning effectively manage a time and set my goals by planing and do my priority more in less time.  In the beginning, seems like a dream for me but my subconscious alert me about the time is passing and finally I dropped some of my class that I think I can't work on it this semester but I missed due date so unfortunately I got W but I feel more lighter than before. I only focus on my writing class but I felt pity when I heard American History and Philosophy classes was full and the professor couldn't add me this time. I learned a lot from those classes because it's more challenging and have a lot of new and unfamiliar vocabulary that I love to learn use them. I will take both of them next semester and I am sure everybody need to know about these topics. I love learning new things and I am so excited for my next year study plan.

What are your expectations for 1) this class and 2) what are your educational goals and your own expectations of yourself as a student in college this semester?


It's hard to say because I am not the person who has a "long Plan" and navigate the rules which help to reach your goals. But I love challenge myself, my skills and learn new things that's why I attending to college. In the beginning it was odd for me after long living in U.S back to school and learn academic writing but later I start to love it because I never had a chance to learn academic English, I learned by myself and I noticed I have a lot of grammar mistake. I know grammar is boring but I have to face to this problem and I don't have any choice to correct my essay by my own and be independent from others. So my first courage was my discourage from translator or other people who I asked them to help me! As a writer this is hardest part of my writing life because took my confident and also best opportunities of me to be more involve to American literature and cultures. Reading is not enough because I have to use my resource and finally I felt I am start to drought and feel left like desert.

In beginning was hard specially creative writing is different with academic writing and I still don't like it. But I don't have any choice to pass this scales and pass ESL classes to can able to get English writing class or American literature class. This is my goals and my encouragement to continue these difficult days!

My educational goals to achieve how to write English poem correctly and learn how to communicate and write academically and correctly because as a same time I am a teacher and it is really important to discuss with students and schools with higher level of English language and have more vocabulary to attract wilder society.

Other goals of my life to can write and translate poems from Persian to English and English to Persian and use my poetry as a bridge to contact between two beautiful and rich cultural readers.

I expect to analyse our reading and writing not only in common way I prefer to enjoying the process. reaching points is still important but I am a person who enjoy going deep on the road and seeing more beauty on the way instead just keep going and speeding to get the goals. So for this part, it's depends of class potential and how professor make class environment happily and positivist. Other hands how we work together to make our semester or our life time is more smooth and useful.